Friends

I've come to the realization that a person I thought was a friend was never a friend so peep.. I found out some information about someone and it so happened that she was messing around with one of my friends husband we will describe her as Lisa and the other chick who married as Tina for security purposes I don't want too expose names.. So Tina is my friend and one day yeah I was being nosey but saw a text from Lisa's husband saying I enjoyed our night blah blah blah.. So I was shocked and didn't take it to the extreme because I thought maybe they were talking about lunch idk lol but then lisa steps to me and says I want to talk too you and I don't want to be judged since most of my friends talk to me I considered the convo she didn't say any names but I'm talking to this married guy and he keep saying he wants to leave his wife and he has a child and idk what to do (light bulb) I thought about the text I read so I'm like WTF girl leave him alone that's not right so Lisa is like I'm trying but he keep callin I'm like girl take control and end that so and few yrs later I started peeping somebody come over for her but it's at weird hrs of the night and of course when I'm sleep in my room so I told a friend and she tells Tina what was going on so now being that I actually known Tina for yrs we just were not that close anyway but close enough to express or say what's on our minds but I'm the type to stay out of it because I felt like it wasn't my place.. Was I wrong for telling her the truth when she asked?? Idk but she would have never known if it wasn't for our mutual friend so I was upset the mutual friend said something because I was just going to let that shit appear on it's on it would stay a secret for long I feel.. So now Lisa goes and sprays me by saying I'm mad and that my bf tried to have sex with her and even tried paying her for sex WTF!!! So your mad the fire on you so u think I intially said something so u wanna lie and out someone else into something that don't concern them.. So drama drama drama being that I'm pregnant I can't really get all upset like I use too because I was bought to kill this bitch with the dumb shit so let me kno followers what y'all think..


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Wondering why??

You ever wonder why you put up with so much... I deal with a day to day bullshit when it comes to my supposed boyfriend. Put up with so much if I were to post what texts or quotes his words allot may say damn fuck wrong with him!!! All the shit I do from giving a person my entire income tax check to everytime I get paid I'm dishing out money from putting him first and forgetting about me because I wanna show him I'm here for him no matter what.. Afraid to talk to people because they were right maybe he's not the one, maybe the pregnancy is a mistake having someone treat you like dirt and it feels like you are never in a position where you can be happy.. Why am I happy for a few days then I turn around it's bitch this, fuck you, damn I wish we would have had an abortion... almost make me want too say WTF why are you here then??And why am I here?? I could have had such a better relationship somewhere else someone who respects me someone who is there for me and loves me for me.. I'm hurting because I'm so fed up and confused and don't know what to do anymore..


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Stress

So today I was sick and feeling really cramped up in the stomach because of my damn roomate who made collard greens and put vineger in it but I was like fucking it up because I LOVE collard greens!!! So today I wake up bruping it and at the same time vomitting. So I called out from work fmla which is family medical leave act. It protects you from loosing your job because your covered but you don't get paid for that day though smh!! So with all that going on my job has been on me like white on rice saying do you think you will meet your numbers and I'm like a beast when it comes too sales. But now that I'm having a baby I be out of work allot with doctors appointments and feeling sick. So it's hard selling with the way the economy is to people because all they say is it's hard you kno and I'm like ok damit buy something lol...but I think I need to take a leave until after I have this baby and then I can be back on point like I use too but idk or maybe a new job god will steer me there but for now AT&T it is because all the jobs I want I need to finish these two semesters and get into my field teaching...

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Pregnant Life

With so many mixed feelings pregnant life is almost depressing.. I mean Im so excited that I am blessed to have a child but sitting in the house all day doing nothing is what's sooo boring and depressing!! Because see I was the type of chick that was on the scene or gone somewhere getting wasted, having ladies night or just doing something.. And now that I'm only 3 months it's like 6 more months is like ughhh it's gonna be a long time before my life turns back. I mean I'm going to be with my child but with my family I will have the weekends too myself and atleast I can have a life a little lol!! Life isn't all about going out but when cant do anything and when you think about doing anything it's like oh you can go out to eat or movies that's about it.. That's soo boring lol!! But your emotions start to change and move into ways where your like why am I said or why am I so upset?? They say a baby makes you emotional but woow this is way over the top for me. Sometimes I want to be alone, at times I want to be held, at times I wanna cry, at times I want curse everybody out in my tracks!! But I just relax and just calm down because it's the baby.. But I guess as the months go on I will see how life progress but hopefully it gets better in due time...


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Pregnant life

So I have been so emotional today. I have been arguing over the craziest things with my baby daddy from names to what he thinks I should be eating.. But what blew me was when he texted me after telling me I talk too much shit and I'm like you start every argument for nothing so then he goes you can be replaced??!! Where they do that at??!! And after reading that a customer got the best of me over the phone and I just bursted into tears and could not stop. I got hot it took so much to calm down and relax. So I got over it but it just was fustrating to see what he is thinking and I told him to replace me if it's that easy because I can bring in my child alone and without you. A real man will step up to the plate and will take your spot as if I don't have plentyto choose from but as a good girl friend I have always pushed dudes back because I want to be that good and faithful girl. But enough is enough when you see somebody is just out to hurt you or get you and they know your having a baby.. But I had a real good tall tonight with someone and they made me open my eyes and all I gotta say is god is my master and he will guide me thru..


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Having a baby

So I was blessed with a child I'm now about 5 weeks and I'm excited because this is my very first and I'm 27 yrs old I did very good yall. I know so many woman have made mistakes in the past that they had children early but I'm not judging anyone because life is what you make it.. So I want a boy everybody say I'm going to have a girl and I'm just like whatever I'm having a boy!! Lol but I am looking forward to motherhood and taking on awhole new role and responsibility that some may say I'm not ready but what parent you know is ready for kids.. I can say this I will be the best mother to my child!! I will do everything in my power to keep a smile on my childs face, provide, nourish, and love my child to the fullest!!! It's going to be a challenge but I'm ready...


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