Thinking....

Ive had sooooo much on my mind lately.. I have been working at AT&T for about 3 months now and its good but the pressure from work makes you think of work even away from work!!! But besides that I have been thinking about someone that I really felt close too and maybe even close to getting into something serious but I guess maybe my signals gave the wrong thing and it turned out that they feel like I'm not keeping it real or I'm playing games... Its so hard for me to get serious again because I have so much doubt and like the song say Ice Box where my heart use to be... I'm starting to wonder do I come off as playing games idk...But besides that Ive been thinking of the place I'm moving into on the 1st of April... Just cause I don't have everything not even a BED!!! But I mean I'm grateful in all just wish I had some additional help...But I guess I gotta do what I gotta do.... So then I also have been thinking of my mom lately, She passed in 1997 but she never left me!!! I miss her sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH!!!!! You guys don't even know how hard it is to not have someone to really talk to at times... No one understands me or get me...some think I'm nice, kool, great person, some say I'm mean, flaw, or full of shit... I am ME and I never meant to give people the wrong idea but I just want people to quit judging me or assuming they know what type of person I am. I find myself in a daze sometimes just cause my mind is racing... I have been getting up at the same time every night 3:20 AM.... Why is that somebody tell me!!! I don't know what it is but its the same everynight GOD must be trying to give me a signal. So I been also thinking damn I cant wait to get me a CAR.. Ive been waiting on that just cause I have soooo much other stuff going on I cant afford it.. I still owe people money, I still got bills I have to tend too so life is good but stressful at the same time... I'm being positive just needed to talk and since I really don't have anyone to talk to I blogged.... Well until next time....



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