And Cant Stop Poppin These Vision I Gotta Get With It.......

I live a life mix with confusion and fustration that come in a variety of shapes and colors....
Not only is this life not so great but shit its a roller coaster you cant get off....
I dream of air, fresh air to breath and experience life....
Where is good LIFE you work hard and still get NOTHING!!!
Amazed by some events in your life that gives you the impression that LIFE
IS NICE....
Then comes the storm and it drowns you for all life and relization of what may come your way at any time but you strive to get through....
What if you get through but it REPLAYS in your life every year....
OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER!!!!!
What happens when you just give up on life....
Are you now not strong enough...But who determines you being strong BUT YOU....
You make up how strong or how hard you gonna go to get through life....
Are you living?? Or Are you exisiting?? Life is our obstacle through strength of which we need to survive in this world...
God is our man in crime our saviour almighty man in which we confide in at all times!!!
But you need him to guide you...Put you in the position where life will be unbeliveable....
When does life begin when all you see is rain!!! You begin to pray and cry your river to exit that pain you have felt for years...A ginx that wont go away until GOD lets it go....
Move on through life untouchable otherwise haterz and others will drag you down..
You hold your head up and always smile with just a little evil look that triggers in your head that you know they gonna have to see you soon...
Soon to be on point wondering where you been and wanna join the team.....

Hahaha life aint gone get me I GOTTA GET WIT IT.....




Till next time


Love Live Life

Mr. Temptation....

This was posted by another blogger but its so how Im feeling right now!!!! Thanks hun!!!!!




Mr. Temptation...Its you I dream of tastingAnd you can take that how you want just know I really mean tastingI must admit you have me feeling some type of wayYou got me speechless and that doesn't happen every dayTo your advances I really do not know what to sayI guess "no" would be correct but I really want to say "okay"I know its wrong to even entertain these thoughts in my headTrying to find that loophole that allows you into my bedFor so long Ive kept a distance between you and IToo afraid to risk my heart by giving the "bad guy" a tryBut now temptation has risen like foreign water tsunamisIf only we had met up in rather different surroundingsUnder different circumstances the choice would already be madeBottom line by now I would already be laidYou got me...Having sweet dreams about sweet kisses being planted down my spineDirty words being exchanged from your lips to mineA voice so baritone voicing your lustful intentionsHas me thinking about things I should be too shy to mentionThings I really shouldn't be thinking at allLike, I bet you're strong enough to take me up against a wallI bet you could do just the right things to just the right placesHave me sprung -jotting your name with hearts and smiley facesI don't want love, I'm thinking more like "friends with benefits"My heart knows this is wrong but my body is screaming the oppositeFor once in my life I want to just live without limitsLive life for a day where my body makes the decisionsI know this aint realistic but these are my true feelingsI'll let you know when I'm ready and I hope then you'll be willingMr. Temptation...am I tempting you too?

And Tomorrow

Today is filled with anger

fueled with hidden hate

scared of being an outcast

afraid of common fate

Today is built on tragedies

which no one wants 2 face

nightmares 2 humanities

and morally disgraced

Tonight is filled with rage

violence in the air

children bred with ruthlessness

because no one at home cares

Tonight I lay my head down

but the pressure never stops

knawing at my sanity

content when I am dropped

But 2morrow I c change

a chance 2 build a NEW

Built on spirit intent of Heart

and ideals based on truth

and tomorrow I wake with second wind

and strong because of pride

2 know I fought with all my heart 2 keep my dream alive....

Friends with benefits....

I have come to the conclusion even friends with benefits with no strings attached still LIE!!! WTF what for? You are not obligated to that person but they insist on not letting you know the run down which is stupid...But anyway having a friend with benefits no strings sometimes gets on your nerves....For instance you chilling with your friend yall vibe and everything but as soon as he doesn't wanna fuck with you that night he goes to another but wont tell you whats up hey aint nothing tonight Im chilling with so and so...But instead a man does the opposite lies and says he is just going to chill and he will be back to satisfy you...But yes I do understand that he doesn't have to tell you or me a damn thang but for me and how I do things I keep it real all the way around....Guys tend to be worried about feelings but who cares I don't. I neever wear my feelings on my shoulders when it comes to guys that are just friends with benefits. The reason why is because I already no what time it is and I'm not expecting it to go further than fucking...... I have been single for 3 years and its been cool for the most part...At times its stressful, lonely, and just sometimes depressing.... Everyone always wants someone to call there own and know that they are faithful and honest to one another and it works..... Now a days everybody is on the friend tip for some reason smh...But how long can you be someones friend with benefits before someone actually wants more....



Till Next time....

Love love Life....

Thanks for being my friend

I don’t think you know what you mean to me
But you mean a lot
The chance of us not being friends
Is a real long shot
I hate when you’re sad
I love it when you’re happy
Because if your upset
It makes me feel crappy
Thanks for always being there
When I needed you most
If it weren’t for you the chances of me not being here
Would have really come close
I don’t know what I would do
If you weren’t my friendI don’t think my heart
Would ever mend
I hope you know I always have your back
Just like you’ve had mine
And it will always stay that way
Until the end of time
We’ll be friends
Hopefully without end
So I just wanna say thanks
Thanks for being my friend.... And soooonnn......to be continued...



PS... Im truely sorry....

Why???????????????

My life has always resorted to that question why? I always try to be the best at whatever I do or try to be that person that you love to hate lol...But no on a serious note I have been trying to let go of someone and I official have moved on but thought I was gonna be able to move onto what I wanted. And that was to be happy and be treated the way I have always wanted BEING APPRECIATED!!!! Today was mad crazy for me....first I get to my interview and there is a crime sence unit outside of the office and they closed the entire floor off which was where my interview was...smh!!! So OK no sweat they will reschedule so that's cool...I also dropped off a resume to a hotel being built so that was a good thing also but yet not satisfying because I wasn't hired....smh!!! But I also went by an agency and asked about positions they may have but they had none...So I cancelled my lunch time with a friend to go to an agency that didn't have anything but when talking to someone over the phone they made it seem as if they had jobs like TODAY available but they didn't...So that sucks missed my lunch date and no jobs this sucks!!! So I finally get the nerve to do my presentation today which went good I got a "B" I was nervous but I did it!!! Even though I was so uncomfrontable in this damn skirt suit and stockings...LOL...But after the presentation I saw something I didn't want to see.... I saw someone that I think is potential speaking to his ex...Now mind you I could not see from a far so I pissed and said "whats up black"? and all I got was whats up homey.....smh!!! damn what the hell!!!!!!! I didn't think I was gonna get that response and I cant believe I was kinda jealous but not in a way because I knew the day would come again..... Now this is my whole thing HISTORY OUT PLAYS ANYTHING NEW!!!!! And I want everybody to know that because as much as we new chicks to these niggaz, as soon as the old bitch comes back its off with you and in with HER!!! Damn that's fucked up.....This is why my guard stay up for sooooo long with guys because I feel as soon as I let up I get dissed!!!! But its cool no love lost!!! Still care but just cautions to allot of things now and now my mind is racing with thoughts of different things.......Should I be the same or should I go back to being the friend and not going further...I don't know my head hurts with dumb shit that I don't need to be focused on right now......


Till next time....


Love Live Life

What a day!!!

Today was pretty good...Woke up took a shower and thank god for waking me up.....Went out to publix, did some shopping and then checked my account and what do you know some unexpected cash was deposited yes sir I got check....Hell yeah!!!!LOL....But I was glad because I needed a few extra bucks so it helped...so I get a phone call today from an isurance company that wants to interview me tomorrow 11:00 AM so I am so excited and ready to KISS some ASS to get the JOB!!!!!!! I dont know if anybody feel me but I need a job and once I get it I aint let it go NO TIME SOOOOONNNN!!!!! So I hope all goes well if not there is always the back up plan a hotel is being built and they have an open house tomorrow so that should be good.....So things can go really good for me this week and my prayers will be answered. But besides the good news I have been feeling really good about alot of things that have come up into my life and the changes Im doing to make my life muuch easier.....I dont know but whatever it is that got me smiling keep doing it because Im starting to like it.....

Till next time.....

Love Live Life