Have you ever been just scared of how your love life will end up...For years I have always admired the relationships that my friends have that LAST...lol just cause I feel like I have this 2 year curse!!! Like before I just went plain ole single for about 3 and half years now...I was in a serious relationship and we lived together but it only lasted for 2 years...And 2 years before that I was in relationship and it didn't last...So I woke up this morning just wondering when the hell will I have a man when I'm 30 LOL....But I don't wanna rush it but when you think your on a hiatus of the breaking point of what you want they seem to change your mind about things...Ever thought you were in love with your friend?? Well sometimes I am afraid and scared to love him because all he will do is hurt me...I know allot about him and sometimes hearing the conversations he may have with others...is heart breaking because he talks a good game about not really talking to anyone like that...But for you to tell ya "home girl" I love you....more than once!!! Its fishy to me...I understand we tell our friends I love you and shit like that but shit I'm questioning that because the person he is telling it to is a female that is IN LOVE with him!!! So mmmm I wonder...But I wake up so angry at times because I'm fed up with trying with guys...I try hard to be that woman every man wants but I cant force it...I guess I don't need him in my life and maybe let others in and enjoy what a real man is about...A real man and a man that's ALLL mine I don't have to doubt that he is mine!!! But I guess it is what it is...I just haven't been in anything serious in awhile...things kinda get scary and lonely...you call other guys to try and see if they are the one but you get the cold shoulder from them...But you cant get mad cause he ain't ya man either....I don't kno...I think I am getting mixed signals from allot of people...and maybe its time for me to back away and see if they will draw into me..lol well see if I exist....
Till Next Time......
Love Live Life.....
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Well San I think u should let what will be, be. you're a beautiful person inside and out so its just a matter of time before someone who compliments u and deserves to be in your splendor steps up and takes his rightful place in your life. as far as ur "friend" (sounds like more to me lol)goes just step back and peep the play. also keep in mind what moving from friends to lovers can be. I've been down that road only to find the man that was so perfect as a friend was sumthing so different as a lover. I wont say I regret the relationship part but our friendship was never the same afterwards..
Whew! i know I was long winded with this one but I felt I had 2 to speak on it!!
Take Care Hon!
I feel you , Sand!!!!!!! Love and let it be!!!!!
Be 100, lover!!!!!
So I totally know how u feel! After I had my son I purposefully didn't give guys the time of day! I didn't have time for it or want to have time for it then I eventually got over that! It seemed the whole time I wanted my ME time every guy I meet wanted to make their wife! Got to a point I didn't even bother exchanging numbers! So for over a year now I went back and fourth within myself about two guys and then it dawned on me if they wanted to me they would be coming after me!! So just chill ma and enjoy ur ME TIME cause it will happen when you least expect it and it will be who you least expect it to be! And trust it will be well worth the wait!
And as far as the friend/s thing take a lot of steps back!!! I was going to say the I love you thing was cool cuz I have to homeboys I do love and I tell them but if she is IN love with him maybe HE needs to reevaluate the situation lol... Girl leave that one a lone I know someone the same way and sometimes what looks good isn't always good for you! lol!
Sorry for the long response...
At time you just need to live your life and don't really think about, how lonely your are, its very depressing. lol
Listen if you take good care of yourself and you got your life together you will attract a good man. Time is the mater of everything.
All the best
Thanks everybody for the comments I really appreciate that!!!!! I am always the type of person that wants to see how everyone else life is about or is it the same...But life must go on it is what it is...My man is out there right in front of me...LOL I just cant find him yet or maybe he cant find me...Im patient shit for 3 yrs...LOL....Thanks guys!!!
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