Shit Just Dont Change

I paid my fair I know my destination....like Kayne West stated...I have been vibin his album because it speaks the truth in most aspects of life...I feel like Nightmares is what Im feeling like weezy states "I got the right, to put up a fight, but not quite, cause you kut off my light, but my sight, is better tonight, and I might, see you in my nightmares, how did you get there, cause we were once a fairy tail....but this is fare well!!!!





This thing with guys are replaying and shit just keeps continuing the same way that it becomes nightmares to me in a sense that I really start to think otherwise and am I gonna be able to move on from what has started, such a good thing but ending up a disaster!!!! In a place where i cant run back into...I fight to get more out of a person and yet I get the usual....Im not saying every guy is the same but its just that its gotta end some time... when the usual changes into somthing different..... I get calls from you know the drunkies that is looking to get laid cause they drunk and shit...LOL nigga please....But this life is not going to happen...

I have issues when it comes to men...I cant never win....But its soo hard to win with guys now a days everybody thinks your a liar or you aint keeping it real... I had a guy today that swore me down I had a man...Shit I wish!! LOL...But naw he wouldnt take my word for it nor would he just respect the fact that I am single.... Yes everybody I am single... why am I single its because Im afraid.....Literally!!!! afraid of failure, afraid of getting hurt, afraid to fall in love again, afraid of men just doing something to fuck up my damn world!!! I am such an emotional wreck because not only is my life getting in the way from me getting to know people a little better but my head wont let go of shit.....I keep thinking everybody out to hurt me and thats not the case...I keep thinking this nigga gonna be kool and then the bomb explodes.....I know I know....you cant go into something thinking like that but what if that shit keep happening.... damn it smh.....But soon I can enjoy life with a man and maybe even have kids...right now my head hurts and I need a joint!!!




Till Next Time....









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