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"Jealousy"

How is it that this word is thrown out allot by people. Are people really jealous or is it that some women think everyone is envious of them. Allot goes through my head when I hear someone say maybe they are jealous. Why must women always use that word why cant it just be they hating on you. I know it sounds dumb but really most things that people assume people are jealous of is absolutely nothing or nothing of substance. Like if you are not doing more than what Im doing or more than what am doing currently in life I will never be jealous of. See I have never had that problem of being jealous of women. I may say in a joking way Im jealous wish I had your butt... But that is taken as a joke because i am fine with my lil booty but if i wanted too I could have one like the rest of these broads lol...
But moreover after watching Love and Basket ball wives LA just made me think of how women always claiming somebody jealous...



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New Life

Its been a really long time since I have blogged but wanted to let you all know.. I am bacccckkkkk.... first blog up tonight...

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Friends

I've come to the realization that a person I thought was a friend was never a friend so peep.. I found out some information about someone and it so happened that she was messing around with one of my friends husband we will describe her as Lisa and the other chick who married as Tina for security purposes I don't want too expose names.. So Tina is my friend and one day yeah I was being nosey but saw a text from Lisa's husband saying I enjoyed our night blah blah blah.. So I was shocked and didn't take it to the extreme because I thought maybe they were talking about lunch idk lol but then lisa steps to me and says I want to talk too you and I don't want to be judged since most of my friends talk to me I considered the convo she didn't say any names but I'm talking to this married guy and he keep saying he wants to leave his wife and he has a child and idk what to do (light bulb) I thought about the text I read so I'm like WTF girl leave him alone that's not right so Lisa is like I'm trying but he keep callin I'm like girl take control and end that so and few yrs later I started peeping somebody come over for her but it's at weird hrs of the night and of course when I'm sleep in my room so I told a friend and she tells Tina what was going on so now being that I actually known Tina for yrs we just were not that close anyway but close enough to express or say what's on our minds but I'm the type to stay out of it because I felt like it wasn't my place.. Was I wrong for telling her the truth when she asked?? Idk but she would have never known if it wasn't for our mutual friend so I was upset the mutual friend said something because I was just going to let that shit appear on it's on it would stay a secret for long I feel.. So now Lisa goes and sprays me by saying I'm mad and that my bf tried to have sex with her and even tried paying her for sex WTF!!! So your mad the fire on you so u think I intially said something so u wanna lie and out someone else into something that don't concern them.. So drama drama drama being that I'm pregnant I can't really get all upset like I use too because I was bought to kill this bitch with the dumb shit so let me kno followers what y'all think..


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Wondering why??

You ever wonder why you put up with so much... I deal with a day to day bullshit when it comes to my supposed boyfriend. Put up with so much if I were to post what texts or quotes his words allot may say damn fuck wrong with him!!! All the shit I do from giving a person my entire income tax check to everytime I get paid I'm dishing out money from putting him first and forgetting about me because I wanna show him I'm here for him no matter what.. Afraid to talk to people because they were right maybe he's not the one, maybe the pregnancy is a mistake having someone treat you like dirt and it feels like you are never in a position where you can be happy.. Why am I happy for a few days then I turn around it's bitch this, fuck you, damn I wish we would have had an abortion... almost make me want too say WTF why are you here then??And why am I here?? I could have had such a better relationship somewhere else someone who respects me someone who is there for me and loves me for me.. I'm hurting because I'm so fed up and confused and don't know what to do anymore..


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Stress

So today I was sick and feeling really cramped up in the stomach because of my damn roomate who made collard greens and put vineger in it but I was like fucking it up because I LOVE collard greens!!! So today I wake up bruping it and at the same time vomitting. So I called out from work fmla which is family medical leave act. It protects you from loosing your job because your covered but you don't get paid for that day though smh!! So with all that going on my job has been on me like white on rice saying do you think you will meet your numbers and I'm like a beast when it comes too sales. But now that I'm having a baby I be out of work allot with doctors appointments and feeling sick. So it's hard selling with the way the economy is to people because all they say is it's hard you kno and I'm like ok damit buy something lol...but I think I need to take a leave until after I have this baby and then I can be back on point like I use too but idk or maybe a new job god will steer me there but for now AT&T it is because all the jobs I want I need to finish these two semesters and get into my field teaching...

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Pregnant Life

With so many mixed feelings pregnant life is almost depressing.. I mean Im so excited that I am blessed to have a child but sitting in the house all day doing nothing is what's sooo boring and depressing!! Because see I was the type of chick that was on the scene or gone somewhere getting wasted, having ladies night or just doing something.. And now that I'm only 3 months it's like 6 more months is like ughhh it's gonna be a long time before my life turns back. I mean I'm going to be with my child but with my family I will have the weekends too myself and atleast I can have a life a little lol!! Life isn't all about going out but when cant do anything and when you think about doing anything it's like oh you can go out to eat or movies that's about it.. That's soo boring lol!! But your emotions start to change and move into ways where your like why am I said or why am I so upset?? They say a baby makes you emotional but woow this is way over the top for me. Sometimes I want to be alone, at times I want to be held, at times I wanna cry, at times I want curse everybody out in my tracks!! But I just relax and just calm down because it's the baby.. But I guess as the months go on I will see how life progress but hopefully it gets better in due time...


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Pregnant life

So I have been so emotional today. I have been arguing over the craziest things with my baby daddy from names to what he thinks I should be eating.. But what blew me was when he texted me after telling me I talk too much shit and I'm like you start every argument for nothing so then he goes you can be replaced??!! Where they do that at??!! And after reading that a customer got the best of me over the phone and I just bursted into tears and could not stop. I got hot it took so much to calm down and relax. So I got over it but it just was fustrating to see what he is thinking and I told him to replace me if it's that easy because I can bring in my child alone and without you. A real man will step up to the plate and will take your spot as if I don't have plentyto choose from but as a good girl friend I have always pushed dudes back because I want to be that good and faithful girl. But enough is enough when you see somebody is just out to hurt you or get you and they know your having a baby.. But I had a real good tall tonight with someone and they made me open my eyes and all I gotta say is god is my master and he will guide me thru..


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Having a baby

So I was blessed with a child I'm now about 5 weeks and I'm excited because this is my very first and I'm 27 yrs old I did very good yall. I know so many woman have made mistakes in the past that they had children early but I'm not judging anyone because life is what you make it.. So I want a boy everybody say I'm going to have a girl and I'm just like whatever I'm having a boy!! Lol but I am looking forward to motherhood and taking on awhole new role and responsibility that some may say I'm not ready but what parent you know is ready for kids.. I can say this I will be the best mother to my child!! I will do everything in my power to keep a smile on my childs face, provide, nourish, and love my child to the fullest!!! It's going to be a challenge but I'm ready...


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Up late

So I am up and just have thoughts running through my head. I have been thinking about how things seems to get in my way at times. So I don't have a car right now, I have been depending on others to help. It has been so fustrating because I don't go where I wanna go, I don't do what i want, it's up setting when you know people really don't wanna help but they do because they know the friendship would end over not being there when needed. But somehow you get the attitude from plenty for nothing it's not like you are not provided gas but hey that's how it is. So I will be working for the next two weeks six days to get a car!!!! But wish me luck....I'm determined!!!!


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Suspended

So I go to work the other day as usual ready and focused on making sales!!! But this day I was sleepy a little and just not really into it anyway.. SO I get a email from my manager to sign out for a meeting meaning while your on this call don't take another one we need to speak... So i get into his office accompanied by a union rep because I am apart of the union at my job. I get called in to discuss a call I took that he is saying that the call was a GCA.. Gross customer abuse.. what I did was transferred the call back into the cue without advising the customer of where they were going.. So I was suspend for the remaining of the day without pay but I kinda didn't mind because I was sluggish and really not into work that day so I chilled and relaxed most of the day....

LOL... such a crazy one..



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Chillin

So its been sooooooo long since I have blogged just been on some otha ish.. But anyhow I have been doing pretty good just been chilling and working. so i have been working for AT&T now for 8 months as you all know I was without a JOB for a long time ago and I was so focused on getting this job that I did and I like it and plan on being there for awhile...Other than that I have been out a few times with the girls for my pas birthday and yes I had a BLAST!!! We decided to go to Iguanas so that was fun because its been ahwile since ya girl got all dolled up and hung out with all of my friends...LOL but life is good for the the most part praying more beautiful and exciting things to come... I have been in a reationship nuff said bout that!! Not going so well these days we will see how that goes... But friedns are good and the few I still have are I all so Love and adore them each in there own different ways... Its so funny because all of them have so many different personalities that they deal with each other just because of me at times but hey who knows a click thats perfect...lol but Im home watching the game GO CANES!!!! so ttyl....









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Its been awhile

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Thinking....

Ive had sooooo much on my mind lately.. I have been working at AT&T for about 3 months now and its good but the pressure from work makes you think of work even away from work!!! But besides that I have been thinking about someone that I really felt close too and maybe even close to getting into something serious but I guess maybe my signals gave the wrong thing and it turned out that they feel like I'm not keeping it real or I'm playing games... Its so hard for me to get serious again because I have so much doubt and like the song say Ice Box where my heart use to be... I'm starting to wonder do I come off as playing games idk...But besides that Ive been thinking of the place I'm moving into on the 1st of April... Just cause I don't have everything not even a BED!!! But I mean I'm grateful in all just wish I had some additional help...But I guess I gotta do what I gotta do.... So then I also have been thinking of my mom lately, She passed in 1997 but she never left me!!! I miss her sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo MUCH!!!!! You guys don't even know how hard it is to not have someone to really talk to at times... No one understands me or get me...some think I'm nice, kool, great person, some say I'm mean, flaw, or full of shit... I am ME and I never meant to give people the wrong idea but I just want people to quit judging me or assuming they know what type of person I am. I find myself in a daze sometimes just cause my mind is racing... I have been getting up at the same time every night 3:20 AM.... Why is that somebody tell me!!! I don't know what it is but its the same everynight GOD must be trying to give me a signal. So I been also thinking damn I cant wait to get me a CAR.. Ive been waiting on that just cause I have soooo much other stuff going on I cant afford it.. I still owe people money, I still got bills I have to tend too so life is good but stressful at the same time... I'm being positive just needed to talk and since I really don't have anyone to talk to I blogged.... Well until next time....



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Sneaky Ass Fuckers!!!!

Sooooo I have been wondering why guys without the title still cant tell the truth!!! Damn!!! why the fuck is it so hard to tell the truth!!! You guys who wants women to be all about you but yet every time you bring up something its naw we ain't nothing....yeah right!!! So I am stuck on this dilemma because some say I play games... I play the same game guys play.. I'm tired of being played for a fool...shit gotta change... so I was listening to the famous John Basden..I think I spelled his name right lol... But he was talking about why do people in relationships continue to lie about things or marriages... So this lady called in and said she was married for about 10 or 13 years or so and her husband was on the down low for about 6 years with someone else...DAMN!!! and then this other lady called in and said she was married for 27 years and her husband just up and left THE COUNTRY!!! Did not tell her ANYTHING NOTHING JUST LEFT!!!! WTF!!!! I'm starting not to even want to get married...smh!!! But besides that I have been chilling and working my butt off so I move in on APRIL 1ST!!!! Hell yea look for pics of the finishing touches...Gotta paint this weekend get a few things for now and I will be in MY OWN SHIT!!!! But I miss blogging just be too damn tired and aggravated from work..damn I don't miss call center work...LOL...Until next time....




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Good Morning America!!!!

Well I'm up having my usual morning joint taking in the week that's about to unravel...So I been thinking about allot lately just because people are funny or shall I say interesting.... So I wake up to a text this morning saying "San can you put $20 or $30 in my acct today".... So immediately I'M pisted because every since I got this new job everybody think I got bread to give away!!! Damn I got shit I do have to take care of, I am still without a car and a home...So you tell me where to I have money to waste on other peoples mistakes...Now I don't mind giving my friends cash or whatever but all weekend I have gotten the same text but not from one person, several of my friends....Maybe I should have never stated how much I get paid....DAMN BIG ASS MISTAKE!!!!! So besides that I go to work at 3:30pm and gotta a test on the material...So gotta go quiz myself before work because I gotta get "A" in whatever I do!!!! Ya dig!!!! So see ya lata.....





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WHOOOAAAAAA ITS BEEN AWHILE!!!

So allot has happened since the last time I blogged...So lets begin lol.....

The after party for the concert and step show...(Iguana's)

Homecoming.....

So homecoming turned out not so bad after all...I saw allot of old and new friends!! it was kool seeing everybody laughing and having fun....I really needed this just because I haven't been out in awhile...I also was messing up the fish that my homie Peanut made big ups to him he can really cook!!! I guess that's why I missed the game too busy eating!! LOL!!!! But the night was good!!...pics on the blog. So I was really vibin and wanted to hit the club but that didn't happen because people got missing....LOL but it was kool just went to the crib and chilled....

So besides that I been working at AT&T now for about a month now time is going but hey its good!!! But I will be blogging more often just been in my zone....trying to get things in order and trying to get a crib you know...so I gotta stay focused and on the PRIZE!!!!...

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Busy B......

So I been working and getting that CHECK for real!!! So I finally am an AT&T worker!!! So I have been blessed with a JOB...As you all may know I was out of a job for about 4 months and I originally applied for AT&T awhile ago and they told me to start in January but things happened and wasn't able to start until Feb 2, 2009!!! So I finally get my foot and the door and now in training for the next 8 wks so I really be tired and sleepy after work so I will get to blogging when ever I get a chance...But everything is getting lined up and I about to explode...I wrote a blog before stating Ima BEAST out here!!! I still am and I about to be ob POINT like an arrow...No one can stop me from doing me and getting where I need to be...Life is good!!! GOD is good!!!!!!

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Scared.....

Have you ever been just scared of how your love life will end up...For years I have always admired the relationships that my friends have that LAST...lol just cause I feel like I have this 2 year curse!!! Like before I just went plain ole single for about 3 and half years now...I was in a serious relationship and we lived together but it only lasted for 2 years...And 2 years before that I was in relationship and it didn't last...So I woke up this morning just wondering when the hell will I have a man when I'm 30 LOL....But I don't wanna rush it but when you think your on a hiatus of the breaking point of what you want they seem to change your mind about things...Ever thought you were in love with your friend?? Well sometimes I am afraid and scared to love him because all he will do is hurt me...I know allot about him and sometimes hearing the conversations he may have with others...is heart breaking because he talks a good game about not really talking to anyone like that...But for you to tell ya "home girl" I love you....more than once!!! Its fishy to me...I understand we tell our friends I love you and shit like that but shit I'm questioning that because the person he is telling it to is a female that is IN LOVE with him!!! So mmmm I wonder...But I wake up so angry at times because I'm fed up with trying with guys...I try hard to be that woman every man wants but I cant force it...I guess I don't need him in my life and maybe let others in and enjoy what a real man is about...A real man and a man that's ALLL mine I don't have to doubt that he is mine!!! But I guess it is what it is...I just haven't been in anything serious in awhile...things kinda get scary and lonely...you call other guys to try and see if they are the one but you get the cold shoulder from them...But you cant get mad cause he ain't ya man either....I don't kno...I think I am getting mixed signals from allot of people...and maybe its time for me to back away and see if they will draw into me..lol well see if I exist....




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Friends

So today one of my best friends hits me up and tells me she is down because one her friends offended her regarding her relationship... See I am the type of friend as much as I dislike the guy you are with I will not tell you because I want you to experience and learn for yourself....I mean I will tell you my opinion but its up to you if you choose to proceed with the relation ship or not... So I pasted the email from her SO CALLED FRIEND to the blog, the reply was from my bff saying "Tay I'm tired of all of this with Daniel" and then she replied below...Let me know your view on how you would give advice to your friend who knows damn well he his no good for her!!!....



"You can not make him grow up. You can not make him love you. You can not make him change his ways. He has to WANT TO and obviously he does not want to. You look at it as your "LONGEST RELATIONSHIP" where as other people like myself might look at it as the "Longest Waste of Time". One year of that so called relationship didn't mean squat because half of that ONE year he was in a some what committed relationship with someone else. to me and anyone else, this situation is a no brainer, that's why I believe you seek attention. If you KNOW how he is and you KNOW you can do better, why do you constantly come to your friends complaining about what Daniel did or said to hurt you. How long do you think people are going to keep coming to your aide?? As much as I love you and I wanna be there for you I must admit I am burnt out with you and all of your Daniel foolishness. I guess that's why I find your situation humorous. That may hurt your feelings to hear something like that but it shouldn't bother you cause you are obviously a gluten for emotional pain."


I'm still PIST about this email... Because Lauren my bff is so sweet and she is just learning how to love someone and she is so naive when it comes down to who her real friend are....




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